Look, I've fattened her up! She's the smiliest baby yet...but the smiles disappear when the camera replaces my face. Of course, even though she's the smiliest, she's just as gassy as the rest. And, she's finally letting me get manageable amounts of sleep (four hours in the first shift sometimes and then up every two or so after that). I love this baby to pieces! s
Theresa was a sweetheart and braved the circus that is us (seriously, I'm positive she's never photographed a more unprepared family- we weren't even all dressed when she arrived) to get these. There aren't many photos of my babies with me in them so I treasure them. Thank you so much for giving us your time, woman. Love, sara
p.s. Finn is 2 weeks old here.I'll take a few in a couple of weeks to show how I've fattened her up!
Usually, I manage to send out Christmas cards with a photo and letter- sometime around Christmas (even if it's after), but this year there's just no way. I didn't even look at cards. Some of you know, but a lot of you don't: this year has been a little different...lots of news that I've kept to myself because I've been busy and it's mostly not pleasant (depending on perspective). Chris and I have filed for divorce. That decision was made and then the shortest while after, I found out we were expecting (yep, again). She is due this January. We're waiting on her to finalize. This is what I get for secretly (or not so secretly) judging those visibly pregnant moms who had a non-walking baby on the hip. Who doesn't wait to get pregnant until the other one is at least walking?
Chris has moved to North Dakota for a 5 week trial run. He'll be back to El Paso right before the newest baby is born and if he decides to go back to North Dakota (as I expect he will), he'll return mid-February. Single mothering these three while pregnant (at 36) and working full time has been overwhelming. I'm still not all the way moved in yet. I love the new house (we signed the paperwork in July), but there are things. Like...the electricity upstairs was out for several weeks but unexpectedly came back on a week and a half ago. I'm grateful it's back on, but then again I'm not holding my breath that I won't wake up to a dark bathroom in the morning. This 100 year old house also needs a new roof (2? leaks anyway), the guest apartment needs a remodel (it's been gutted), I need Grass (like more than electricity upstairs, I want grass)...and re-wiring :).
I thought this would be a long post, that I'd have a lot to write because a fourth baby (seriously, two cribs in a room) and a divorce all at the same time are a big deal, but I guess that's about it. Mostly, I'm just tired (from the non-stop days with this belly) and scared of managing an infant on top of it all. I'm not sure how I'll make it on less sleep. I mean, I still wake up in the middle of the night on my own on those rare nights Willa doesn't cry me awake. Up at 1 a.m. until 2:30 last night (Auden and I ate up a bowl of cereal before we went back to bed). I crawled into bed at a somewhat decent hour but couldn't sleep for thinking of all there was to do. And then, at 3 a.m. I was dreaming that mom died when I heard some God-awful noise that sounded like giant rodents tethered to a rickety cart pulling it at top speed down the street. Anyway, not the best night for sleep (I skipped the part about Matti sleep-yelling sometime after midnight and before Willa awoke us).
So, If you pray, pray. Love and Merry Christmas (I'll force the kids to take a photo early next week and post it promptly), sara
That second photo- that baby is this sweet little one. And that big sister is just as precious as ever. Mom, Sarah, said that Miss M remembered Auden and Matti and as I was editing, I learned that Auden remembered her too. I'd be missing you Kansas if it weren't 50 something here and likely snowing there.
TO better weather; love, sara